{"id":3810,"date":"2026-02-23T20:58:44","date_gmt":"2026-02-23T20:58:44","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/silvaten.no\/dialogue-with-myself\/"},"modified":"2026-03-23T22:16:12","modified_gmt":"2026-03-23T22:16:12","slug":"dialogue-with-myself","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/silvaten.no\/en\/dialogue-with-myself\/","title":{"rendered":"Dialogue with myself"},"content":{"rendered":"\t\t<div data-elementor-type=\"wp-post\" data-elementor-id=\"3810\" class=\"elementor elementor-3810 elementor-3752\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-4fc229f e-flex e-con-boxed wpr-particle-no wpr-jarallax-no wpr-parallax-no wpr-sticky-section-no e-con e-parent\" data-id=\"4fc229f\" data-element_type=\"container\" data-e-type=\"container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"e-con-inner\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-291d791 elementor-widget elementor-widget-heading\" data-id=\"291d791\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-e-type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"heading.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<h4 class=\"elementor-heading-title elementor-size-default\">Dialogue with myself<\/h4>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-15ee0a2 e-flex e-con-boxed wpr-particle-no wpr-jarallax-no wpr-parallax-no wpr-sticky-section-no e-con e-parent\" data-id=\"15ee0a2\" data-element_type=\"container\" data-e-type=\"container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"e-con-inner\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-135004f elementor-widget__width-initial elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"135004f\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-e-type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div dir=\"auto\"><div dir=\"auto\"><div dir=\"auto\">I ask myself<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">not out loud\u2014inside me.<\/div><div dir=\"auto\"> <\/div><div dir=\"auto\">Why does it still hurt,<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">if time has passed?<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">Time has passed,<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">but love doesn&#8217;t know how to leave.<\/div><div dir=\"auto\"> <\/div><div dir=\"auto\">Mom\u2014a void that has a name.<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">Her absence lives in me<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">like a quiet room without light.<\/div><div dir=\"auto\"> <\/div><div dir=\"auto\">Dad\u2014a choice not to be.<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">Not anger.<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">Not conflict.<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">Just absence, which tore security<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">to pieces from the inside.<\/div><div dir=\"auto\"> <\/div><div dir=\"auto\">I held people close, friends\u2014<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">like home.<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">I made them tame.<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">I believed.<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">And when they spoke, their words didn&#8217;t shout\u2014<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">they cut silently.<\/div><div dir=\"auto\"> <\/div><div dir=\"auto\">Pain doesn&#8217;t always scream.<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">Sometimes<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">it just stays.<\/div><div dir=\"auto\"> <\/div><div dir=\"auto\">Maybe you&#8217;re too sensitive? No.<\/div><div dir=\"auto\"> <\/div><div dir=\"auto\">I just feel deeply.<\/div><div dir=\"auto\"> <\/div><div dir=\"auto\">And that is\u2014not a fault.<\/div><div dir=\"auto\"> <\/div><div dir=\"auto\">There are days<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">when there is anger in me<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">that I don&#8217;t dare to let go.<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">There are days<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">when the emptiness has no name.<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">Just heaviness.<\/div><div dir=\"auto\"> <\/div><div dir=\"auto\">But I write.<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">Because when I write,<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">I am still here.<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">Because my voice<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">has not left me.<\/div><div dir=\"auto\"> <\/div><div dir=\"auto\">I am not always strong.<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">Sometimes I am just<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">the one who is left.<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">But today <span style=\"font-size: 1rem; text-decoration-line: initial;\">it is enough.<\/span><\/div><div dir=\"auto\"> <\/div><div dir=\"auto\">And maybe one day<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">I will say to myself, gently:<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">you are not too much.<\/div><div dir=\"auto\">You just <span style=\"font-size: 1rem; text-decoration-line: initial;\">are.<\/span><\/div><\/div><\/div>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Dialogue with myself I ask myselfnot out loud\u2014inside me. Why does it still hurt,if time has passed?Time has passed,but love doesn&#8217;t know how to leave. Mom\u2014a void that has a name.Her absence lives in melike a quiet room without light. Dad\u2014a choice not to be.Not anger.Not conflict.Just absence, which tore securityto pieces from the inside.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"elementor_header_footer","format":"standard","meta":{"_uag_custom_page_level_css":"","site-sidebar-layout":"default","site-content-layout":"","ast-site-content-layout":"default","site-content-style":"default","site-sidebar-style":"default","ast-global-header-display":"","ast-banner-title-visibility":"","ast-main-header-display":"","ast-hfb-above-header-display":"","ast-hfb-below-header-display":"","ast-hfb-mobile-header-display":"","site-post-title":"","ast-breadcrumbs-content":"","ast-featured-img":"","footer-sml-layout":"","ast-disable-related-posts":"","theme-transparent-header-meta":"","adv-header-id-meta":"","stick-header-meta":"","header-above-stick-meta":"","header-main-stick-meta":"","header-below-stick-meta":"","astra-migrate-meta-layouts":"default","ast-page-background-enabled":"default","ast-page-background-meta":{"desktop":{"background-color":"","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""},"tablet":{"background-color":"","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""},"mobile":{"background-color":"","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""}},"ast-content-background-meta":{"desktop":{"background-color":"var(--ast-global-color-5)","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""},"tablet":{"background-color":"var(--ast-global-color-5)","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""},"mobile":{"background-color":"var(--ast-global-color-5)","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""}},"_kadence_starter_templates_imported_post":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3810","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized-no"],"aioseo_notices":[],"uagb_featured_image_src":{"full":false,"thumbnail":false,"medium":false,"medium_large":false,"large":false,"1536x1536":false,"2048x2048":false},"uagb_author_info":{"display_name":"silvaten@gmail.com","author_link":"https:\/\/silvaten.no\/en\/author\/silvatengmail-com\/"},"uagb_comment_info":0,"uagb_excerpt":"Dialogue with myself I ask myselfnot out loud\u2014inside me. 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